Relationships tend to make girls more emotional(or emo to make it sound more er.. tragic)
Yuen stated this and Yng Jiun said aye. And i agree to this statement as well.
Although i am still NOT in a relationship whatsoever with him.
Some of my friends wondered why aren't we still together, others just told me to enjoy my time with him. While a few gave me valuable advices, advices which had me thinking very, very hard.
Falling for him came out as an expected event for me because earlier before, i was having feelings for someone else for almost 2 semesters. And i'm still surprised at how he managed to make me want more attention from him.
I've been having a lot of emo issues lately, which involve him. At first i blamed my childishness, then i blamed PMS..
Small matters irked me out most of the time and he was slapped with a punishment: my mood will end up getting bad, and my SMS-es will sound unhappy (read: short answers with dots at all the right places) and when he calls(he usually calls after receiving a msg that i'm in a 'unhappy' mood), i wouldn't know what to answer when he ask why i'm in a bad mood and i'd usually keep quiet.
It's not that i don't want to smash him and bash him with my words or anything, but since we are at the there but not there status, i'm having a hard time trying to tell him my exact feelings because i always feel that i have no rights whatsoever to be angry with him.
Just because i'm not carrying the girlfriend status.
Like Yuen, i am also 'high mantainence in terms of attention'.
I hate it when he doesn't give me enough attention. Feels so... so.. i don't know what's the word.
But then again, i'm not the girlfriend. So i can't ask much.
I so need some guidance right now. Motherly and sisterly and friendly advices are really welcomed.
I can't even think straight. I hate crying for no reason. I hate being angry at him because of small matters. I hate the fact that i have to talk seriously with him one day and it may end up bad. I'm in a HUGE dilemma. I've never been in this position before. Me feelings are all hay-wired. I have a headache currently.
To YOU, i don't like being there but not there.
It's either there or not there.
I hate being all emo.