Sunday, November 12, 2017

Fighting Myself.

I recently turned 31 (cue: Baskin Robbins 31!) and I had a small celebration with my sister that night.

I actually felt excited turning 31 because I wanted it to be a turning point for a better me.

However, the next day I had a sucky day at work (re: I got so annoyed at people and I cried). It was embarrassing how I had no control over my emotions, exposing the weaker side of me, which I always try very hide to conceal.

It made me rethink about a lot of things.

I realised that I'm quite a loser.

Ok that's a bit harsh on myself, but yeah.

I'm afraid of a lot of things.

I don't enjoy my work, but I'm still doing it because I have gotten myself into a mess with my finances that I wonder if I will ever be freed from it.

I would love to leave my job, but I have no idea what I'm good at. And I will surely disappoint my parents if I do.

I remember once my Japanese language teacher asked whether I was interested in working Japan because she was amazed by how fast my learning ability was. So I asked her what kind of work that I could consider.

And she said, "maybe as a waitress?"

At first my head just went "huh? just a waitress?" but then now that I think about it, I wouldn't mind even if it means that I can work in my favourite country.

I don't need to live in a big house, a 1LDK would do.. I don't need to be paid handsomely, I just want to live a simple life.

I don't dream to have a fantastic career, I just want to live a quiet life. I want to live my life differently.

Is this what adulting does to you?

I feel that the less I desire things, the peaceful I feel.

But sometimes, I have trouble fighting my desires.

I want this. I want that. I see people owning this and that, I get jealous. I see people going out for lavish meals, I'd go "oh how I wish I could".

I want to fall in love, but I'm afraid of rejection. I often tell myself that I shouldn't be embarrassed about approaching a guy first, but the fear of rejection often holds me back. Currently I am interested in someone, and I am taking slow steps (I'm talking snail pace here!) trying to find ways of how I can get close to him.

Sometimes I'd be like "oh to hell with it!" and think of just contacting him, plus he's not in the same country so if I get turned down it wouldn't matter.. but still.. it sucks to be turned down right?

So that's why I keep ignoring the idea of being with someone.

You see annot, I want but I don't want.

I feel like I can never make decisions on my own.

And that's depressing.

I'm trying my best to better myself, and hope for things to turn out well.

I will keep on fighting this demon.

Sorry if my thoughts are all jumbled up. ๐Ÿ˜“

Friday, November 03, 2017

Japan 2017: Tsukiji Fish Market

First full day in Tokyo! We started off with Tsukiji Fish Market..

Took the Hibiya Line on Tokyo Metro to Tsukiji station.

look at that octopus and tuna!

So happened the first food shop that attracted our attention was a shop selling some deep fried stuff..

Aji no Hamato sells various kinds of deep-fried stuff so we couldn't help ourselves, since it was raining a little and cold..

Ended up with a tuna croquette and a corn-fish-cake! Both actually managed to fill up our tummies.. which was actually a very bad move.

Then we saw a stall selling fruits, and ichigo daifuku beside it.

Since I've yet to try white strawberry I chose the white ichigo daifuku, which cost 500 yen.

Honestly, besides the strong strawberry scent, it wasn't sweet. Has a sour hint.

After settling the daifuku, we then realised that's where the lane for fresh seafood shops were.. So that's why don't be greedy and buy whatever you see.

We decided to stop by at a shop selling unagi and skewered seafood.

The hotate (scallops) were so huge and juicy!

Then we walked to nearby store..

1200 yen sea urchin (uni) and 400 yen oyster!

I swear the oysters there were jaw-dropping, compared to what I've eaten back home. Another tourist was actually promoting the 500 yen oyster, which was a little bigger than the one I bought. But I wanted to round up my payment so I took two 400-yen oysters and a 1200 yen sea urchin.

I've tried uni in one of the Japanese restaurants in Malaysia before but was put off by the scent and taste. However, I was willing to try it again in Japan, and thank heavens I did!

It was a different experience altogether! So creamy.. and the oyster was so tasty!

Shop 1 is where we bought the uni and the oyster while shop 2 is where we bought the oyster and the miso crab below

Then dropped by another shop because they were promothing oysters with lemon juice.. so my sister bought one and I ordered kani miso (crab head with miso paste).

I love kani miso, although it's a bit salty. It would have gone so well with rice.

We walked until the end of the row when we saw a store selling tamagoyaki.

Then I remembered it was featured in one of Internationally Me videos!

100 yen tamagoyaki. Apparently you can have it sweet or savoury. My sister bought the sweet ones.. but I didn't quite like it, because I'm more drawn to savoury stuff.

We walked around and decided to settle somewhere for lunch, because I decided we should have lunch in Tsukiji Market before leaving for our next destination.

So we went back to a restaurant opposite Shop 1 (where we had the uni and oyster).

Got my hands on negitoro don! And they gave free kani miso soup for each person. So goooodddd..

I ordered another oyster!

I can't remember the name of this restaurant, but it's located opposite Shop 2 in my previous photo.

I will definitely go back to this place again! ๐Ÿ˜

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

Singapore 2017: RADWIMPS 2017 Asia Live Tour in Zepp@BIGBOX

So I attended the first concert of RADWIMPS 2017 Asia Live Tour, which was held in Zepp@BIGBOX, Singapore!

Zepp@BIGBOX was previously MEGA BOX Event Hall in BIG BOX. It's reachable via Jurong East MRT station.

Apparently the band arrived the same day as I did (on Saturday) but in the evening. I was so tempted to wait for them in the airport but I had no idea which terminal they'd arrive and I had dinner plan with my family.

Doors were scheduled to open at 6 pm, so they only allowed queuing at 5 pm. I was hanging out with my brother and his wife-to-be so I only managed to arrive at the hall at a little bit after 5 pm. 

Should have gotten there earlier because I was at the 5th line already. When I arrived things got a bit chaotic with the security urging the line to move back to allow space.

I guess some people weren't listening (or maybe some didn't understand!) so they started shouting.


After a chaotic moment, we were told to sit, and advised to go to the toilets (by this sweet auntie staff) since there weren't any toilets inside the hall.

that woman standing in the middle is the sweet auntie! :)

I just minded my own business, reading tweets when I saw Yojiro's tweet a photo from inside the hall. So I replied with the photo above and guess what?

He replied.

With two smiley emojis.



I was so happy but I had no one with me. I think if there were someone with me I would have screamed hahaha

I was floating with happiness. I wanted to talk to someone, anyone.

Suddenly I exchanged eye contact with a Japanese girl lining beside my row. I smiled at her and since I noticed her friend was wearing the rubber bracelet from Human Bloom Tour 2017 goods, I showed mine.

And that's how I ended up chit-chatting with the two girls (I hope they will share photos we took together) who flew in from Nagoya for the Singapore show. I even showed them Yojiro's reply hahaha

Oh and and they said I don't look my age at all hahahaha #doublehappiness

Anyways, at 6 pm, we were let in bit by bit, the staff scanned our tickets and when I saw the crowd I knew I had no chance to be in front of Yojiro. So I thought of being at Yusuke's side. Then I remembered that in Budokan I was already at his side so I decided to walk over to Akira's side and yeah, there weren't many people. I positioned myself behind the first row but my mistake was leaving a gap when I sat. Then these two girls came and sat in front of me wtf.

But I just chill.

Announcement were made, there were warnings on prohibition of video/audio recording, photographing and light sticks etc. About 8 minutes before 7 pm everyone stood up, background music were still playing.

stage view when I was sitting down

About less than 5 minutes to showtime, everyone started standing up. And then we could hear the band's signature cheer/feet-stomps from the backstage!

At 7 pm, the lights went off and the familiar opening music which I heard during Budokan was played and the band came out!

I couldn't believe I was seeing them again!

They kicked off with Lights Go Out, followed by ๅคข็ฏ็ฑ  which made everyone who watched Your Name screamed! Then I was expecting ๅ…‰ so I screamed that and...

They played ๅ‰ๅ‰ๅ‰ไธ–.

Malu aku.

Other songs played were AADAAKOODA, ใƒˆใ‚ขใƒซใƒใƒซใƒŽใƒ’, ๆฃ’ไบบ้–“, DADA, ใŠใ—ใ‚ƒใ‹ใ—ใ‚ƒใพ, ใพใ™。and 05410-(ใ‚“).

Yojiro greeted the audience and mentioned that the last time they were in Singapore, the audience had only about 200 pax.

"And most of you.. did not come that time"


It was great hearing him speak in English, although at times the messages got lost a few times haha

I mean, his pronunciation is great, but I think he translated stuff in his head while he talked so sometimes we didn't quite get what he wanted to say. Like when he said he didn't understand how multiracial the country is.. he was actually asking a question!

Because the audience were quiet and listening attentively to him until he went, ".. anyone?"

The audience ended up laughing.

Yojiro: How many of you all know English?
Audience: *majority hands up, screaming*
Yojiro: How many of you all know Chinese? 
Audience: *majority hands up, screaming again* 
Yojiro: ... *dumbfounded* I DON'T UNDERSTAND


Sometimes he ended up speaking Japanese but he said that it's okay if we didn't understand, he just needed to let it out. Haha.

They performed ใƒˆใƒฌใƒขใƒญ as well! I remember how I didn't pay much attention to the song when I listened to RADWIMPS 3 but after seeing their performance in the DVD that came with ไบบ้–“้–‹่Šฑ I was hooked!

And my wish to watch them play ๆด—่„ณ came true! I love how Yojiro changed his style of singing compared to the one in the single. He did dance but I must say compared to Budokan, he was quite tame.

As usual Yojiro played ใƒ‡ใƒผใƒˆ, but only the first 10 seconds and they moved on with ใ‚นใƒ‘ใƒผใ‚ฏใƒซ which made everyone cheer and go all nostalgic.

Before playing ๅ›ใจ็พŠใจ้’, as usual Yojiro lead the crowd to do the "heeeeyyyy hooooo"s and then he wasn't satisfied (me too actually hahaha) so he said:

"The last time when we came, the 200 people did better than this..
So do you know what this means?

HAHAHAHAHAHA OK I really never expected him to say that!

Yusuke got to speak in Chinese and he was so cute! I couldn't get his Chinese name though..

Akira spoke in English and introduced himself. He said that he learnt English "..since yesterday!"

When Yojiro said he was lying, Akira said, "Yes, I'm liar!" haha he promised to work harder in learning English. LOL I love these boys.

They left the stage after performing ๆœ‰ๅฟƒ่ซ– (YESSSSSSSS!) and the audience shouted for encore. I tried singing ใ‚‚ใ—ใ‚‚ but nobody followed along so the "encore!" chant continued until Yojiro came out alone.

He asked if he could play something alone, and the crowd cheered. I started shouting ่ถใ€…็ตใณ and ใŠใ‚ใ„ใ“ but surprise surprise he ended up playing ้€ฑๅˆŠๅฐ‘ๅนดใ‚ธใƒฃใƒณใƒ—!

It was so beautiful! His voice was so great!

The he called the other members out, they performed ใชใ‚“ใงใ‚‚ใชใ„ใ‚„. Before the song he asked whether the audience knew them because of Your Name. The audience said "NOOOOOO..." and he grinned before saying "It's okay you don't have to lie"


And they were supposed to play another song for their last song because Yojiro changed to another guitar.

But the audience started requesting for ใ„ใ„ใ‚“ใงใ™ใ‹? and he went "ใƒžใ‚ธใง?"

The other members okay-ed, and the staff too so they ended the concert with it.

l-r: Yusuke, Mori, Yojiro, Toshiki and Akira


Yeap. Pretty much will watch them again. But I think I might reserve next year for UVERworld.

We'll see what happens!

Actor Yu Shirota was also Singapore! I'm not sure if he purposely followed the band or had some other matters..

You can read YAHOO! Lifestyle Singapore's coverage on the concert here. For official photos from the concert, head over to JMF FB page.

They have also completed their Hong Kong, Bangkok (here's the link for their interview before the show, but it's in Thai), Seoul and Taipei shows (article here) and what is left is their Shanghai concert on 12 July, in the Mercedes-Benz Arena. For tickets go here!

For more photos, I suggest following RADWIMPS official IG and Yojiro Noda's IG.


Sunday, May 28, 2017

Japan 2017: RADWIMPS Human Bloom Tour 2017 Finale in Nippon Budokan

Note: It has been more than 2 weeks since it happened. I tried remembering all the details but I am only human. I don't have super-photographic memories plus my limited ability in Japanese disabled me from understanding most of the things said during the concert. However, I had a really great time, and it was an experience I will treasure for the rest of my life.

Due to some technical error, I was not able to receive digital tickets to the concert. So we had to be at Nippon Budokan an hour earlier than door-opening time, at 5.00 pm.

It was a rainy day, as forecasted. However closer towards the concert time, the rain kind of slowed down.

Went up the escalator this time at Exit 2 of Kudanshita Station. :P

We had to register at the entrance and as the buyer I needed to produce any sort of photo identification so I gave my passport. The staff that attended to me was able to speak English. When he saw my passport he was like, “Wow Malaysia.” 

Maybe there were no other Malaysians at the tour? :P

entrance where they will scan the QR code version of the tickets, which were sent to mobile phones

Anyways, I think this is where they should improve the ticketing system. Other than my name, they didn't ask for any other proof of purchase, for example my order number (which I got after submitting my lottery application) or the credit card number I used.

So imagine if there was another person with my name!


I was then given a slip and was asked to return to the entrance at 6.30 pm to exchange with the real tickets.

A lot of flower bouquets were displayed at the entrance. These were from the staff of 100ไธ‡ๅ††ใฎๅฅณใŸใก, the drama which Yojiro Noda (vocalist) is currently starring in and from Lily Franky, his co-star in the drama, and also his co-star from the movie, ใƒˆใ‚คใƒฌใฎใƒ”ใ‚จใ‚ฟ (Pieta in the Toilet).

So we just killed time walking around at the park. At about 6.15 pm we started walking back to the entrance and saw everyone started entering the hall.

people started going into the hall

I look like I'm scheming something evil in this photo wtf

We lined up for a short time and got our tickets!

Ok I was a little disappointed when I saw 2F, because I kept wishing to be at 1F or anywhere SUPERNEAR to the stage LOL #greedy

Our block on the west side was not too bad actually, we were at Yusuke Takeda (bassist)’s side. The stage and audience occupied only like half of the hall.

my superexcited face. I can't even pose for photos anymore because I was nervous!

The staff was tuning the instruments and one even played 25ใ‚ณ็›ฎใฎๆŸ“่‰ฒไฝ“ on one of the guitars so I got excited and hoped that it will be performed!

At 7 pm, the lights went out and the opening music began, prompting the audience to stand and started clapping to the beats. Colourful lasers started moving around and the band appeared behind a screen monitor with Lights Go Out. Our location enabled us to see them behind the screen. Mid-song Yojiro went up to play the piano in the middle of the drummers, and returned to the front to finish the song.

Then they played ๅคข็ฏ็ฏญ (yumetourou = Dream Lantern), the opening song for Your Name (ๅ›ใฎๅใฏ). The middle monitor went up and the band was visible to all!

I couldn’t help but crying. I knew it was too soon, but I just couldn’t help myself. I couldn’t believe that I was watching RADWIMPS. It was such an emotional night for me. THIS DID NOT HAPPEN WHEN I WATCHED UVERWORLD the first time in Fukuoka!

Then they continued with ๅ…‰ (hikari = Light), another favourite of mine!

They played most songs from ไบบ้–“้–‹่Šฑ (ningen kaika = Human Bloom) except for ‘I’ Novel, ้€ฑๅˆŠๅฐ‘ๅนดใ‚ธใƒฃใƒณใƒ— (shuukan shonen jampu = Weekly Shonen Jump), ่จ˜ๅทใจใ—ใฆ(kigou to shite = Like A Symbol), and ใƒ’ใƒˆใƒœใ‚ท (hitoboshi = Human Constellation).

Other than that they also played some old songs such as 05410-(ใ‚“), ใ‚ขใ‚คใ‚ขใƒณใƒใƒ–ใƒซ (Iron Bible), ใ‚ปใƒ„ใƒŠใƒฌใƒณใ‚ต (setsunarensa), ใŠใ—ใ‚ƒใ‹ใ—ใ‚ƒใพ (oshakashama), DADA, ใพใ™。(masu) and ๅ›ใจ็พŠใจ้’ (kimi to hitsuji to ao).

Yojiro spoke the most during this concert, although Yusuke and Akira Kuwahara (guitarist) had their moments too. I never thought Yojiro to be such a funny person. He had so many weird dance moves and some looked like he was doing silat! He played with his hair a lot too.

He was actually very adorable on stage. I’ve always thought he wouldn’t talk much and not smile much but he was like a happy kid.

During one of the breaks, he even told the audience that it was the best time to go to the toilet. And then he saw someone going after a while and he was like, “going now? are you sure? ok ok we’ll wait” but he did say that they can’t let the time overrun because Nippon Budokan is very strict with time. “When it’s time to stop, you gotta stop”.

Someone in the audience asked “ๅฅฝใใชไบบ (person you like)?” and he was saying something like “it’s hard” and etc. We didn’t get to hear proper answer because suddenly a guy screamed “ๆ„›ใ—ใฆใ‚‹ (I love you)!

I tell you the male audience was way more aggressive than the female hahaha

Akira and Yusuke played Bring me the morning before Yojiro took over with ใƒ‡ใƒผใƒˆ(Date) (I have no idea whether it was that or ใƒ‡ใƒผใƒˆ2 or ไธ‰่‘‰ใฎใƒ†ใƒผใƒž (Mitsuha’s Theme) actually, but you get my drift lah) on the piano, also one the songs from Your Name, which made me cry again. Then he started the first few chords for ใ‚นใƒ‘ใƒผใ‚ฑใƒซ (Sparkle) and I continued crying.

It was beautiful. It was touching. It made me sad. It made me long for so many things. It made me long for love.

Ok that was embarrassing.

RADWIMPS have a lot of songs about love, so it’s hard not to think about that subject (or how my life is currently lacking from it haha)

It was fun singing along to ๅ‰ๅ‰ๅ‰ไธ–, the song which started my interest in the band. The claps, the “oh oh oh oh”s.. and they performed the original version so the last verse before the last chorus, Yojiro came to the middle and sang!

ใ‚ปใƒ„ใƒŠใƒฌใƒณใ‚ต was so cool! They emphasized on the effects through the screen monitors, where the live videos of the band where given visual effects I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO EXPLAIN THIS haha #sorrynotsorry

DADA and ใŠใ—ใ‚ƒใ‹ใ—ใ‚ƒใพ were equally awesome too! As usual he ended DADA with “ใ‚ˆใใงใใพใ—ใŸ (Good job)!” which I just had to shout along! (Learnt it from watching their live videos haha)

Before ๅ›ใจ็พŠใจ้’ started, they did the usual “heyyyyy hooooo” but after two times Yojiro just kept quiet for a moment. He made himself look like he was unsatisfied so the audience began chanting “ใ‚‚ใ†ไธ€ๅ›ž! ใ‚‚ใ†ไธ€ๅ›ž! (again! again!)” He threatened to end the concert (I don’t think he has the heart too though) if everyone would stay unenthusiastic haha

Then he repeated again and the fun song started. At the end they repeated the main chords again as usual! Very funny because they kept saying they wouldn’t do it because it was tiring. Yusuke even put up his hands to show that they were shaking!

The first set ended with ๅ‘Š็™ฝ (kokuhaku = Confession), which is supposed to be a marriage proposal-ish kinda song, but Yojiro took some time to share his thoughts about life, mankind and etc. before the song. He promised to continue making music for the future. I didn’t understand much but I felt his sincerity while addressing the audience.

His voice was so beautiful during the song. Plus I love how the piano had some moving constellation effects during the song.

They went off stage and the audience started singing ใ‚‚ใ—ใ‚‚ (moshimo), a song which made them won Yokohama High School Music Festival and sort of kick-started their career. It was so sweet of the fans. I paled in comparison to these people I must say. But it’s okay. It doesn’t make me less a fan. My sister told me to take the lead for the Singapore live but.. hmm..

Shy ba.

During that time, the staff set up a set of keyboards at the middle of the stage and then Yojiro came out alone. He thanked the audience for the encore and asked permission to sing some songs. He also requested the audience to turn on the mobile phone lights and also the lights at the backdrop, turning the hall into a sky full of stars.

Then he played the first song, which was ใƒˆใƒฌใƒขใƒญ (toremoro = Tremolo) which caught me by surprise! Because Tremolo is a fast song and it turned out so beautiful with just his vocals, keyboards and the lights. After that he asked if he could sing a song that he wrote (for other people). In my heart I silently screamed ่ถใ€…็ตใณ (chouchou musubi = butterfly knot), a song he wrote for Aimer and appeared at the last verse. His vocals are different than Aimer’s so he brought out a subtle side of it. I cried (shy shy shy) when he sang the last verse:

ใ“ใฎ่’ผใใฆๅบƒใ„ไธ–็•Œใซ ็„กๆ•ฐใซ ๆ•ฃใ‚‰ใฐใฃใŸไธญใ‹ใ‚‰
ๅˆฅใ€…ใซไบŒไบบ้ธใ‚“ใ ็ณธใ‚’ ใŠไบ’ใ„ใŸใใ‚Šๅฏ„ใ›ๅˆใฃใŸใ‚“ใ 
็ตใฐใ‚ŒใŸใ‚“ใ˜ใ‚ƒใชใ็ตใ‚“ใ ใ‚“ใ  ไบŒไบบใง 「ใ›ใƒผใฎ」ใงๅผ•ใฃๅผตใฃใŸใ‚“ใ 
ๅคงใใใ‚‚ ๅฐใ•ใใ‚‚ ใชใ‚Šใ™ใŽใชใ„ใ‚ˆใ†ใซ ๅŠ›ใ‚’่พผใ‚ใŸใ‚“ใ 
Among the millions scattered in this blue wide world
The two of us separately picked a thread and pulled it to ourselves
The knot wasn't tied, we did it ourselves with a "one, two, three"
So that it doesn't get too large or too small
We put our strength to it

Because this was the verse that made me love the song, apart from Aimer’s voice.

As his final song alone, he requested for an acoustic guitar and sang another oldie but goodie, ๅคข็•ชๅœฐ (yumebanchi).

Then the other members and the two drummers came out and they performed ใ„ใ„ใ‚“ใงใ™ใ‹? (iindesuka), which was fun to clap and sing along too. When they performed ใชใ‚“ใงใ‚‚ใชใ„ใ‚„ (nandemonaiya), I was caught off guard again, because I never expected them to perform it! My sister said Yojiro looked like he was about to cry..

It was actually a great song to end the show, but then Yojiro said they will perform the last song (for real), a song requested by someone in the audience when he was playing his solo set.

WHICH WAS ๆœ‰ๅฟƒ่ซ– (yuushinron)!


I was so happy that I hit my sister’s arm in excitement! LOL

It was such a happy moment because it was my dream to sing along to that song! I let myself loose that night!

A good ending it was.

Then they came to bow at the centre (a very long bow) before leaving the stage.

When we got out of the hall, the clock tower showed 10 pm.

WOW. It was an almost 3-hour show! It did felt longer than the UVERworld and ONE OK ROCK concerts I’ve attended.

Anyways, I was happy, I couldn’t stop smiling. I hummed some tunes while leaving the area.

Honestly, I told myself that would be the first and last time I would be watching RADWIMPS since they performed ๆœ‰ๅฟƒ่ซ– (because I want to focus on watching UVERworld next) BUT since they did not perform ใ‚ตใ‚คใƒใƒ†ใ‚ขใ‚คใซ or ๆด—่„ณ which I think will sound awesome live, and some other favourites of mine (25ใ‚ณ็›ฎใฎๆŸ“่‰ฒไฝ“, me me she, ใ‚ปใƒ—ใƒ†ใƒณใƒใ•ใ‚“ and many more!), I felt like I’ll be watching them again.

I mean I will be watching them again early next month in Singapore, so…

Thank you RADWIMPS.
Thank you Human Bloom Tour 2017.
Like Yojiro said before ending the show: