I know that sounded ridiculous but it's TRUE!
Had lunch with my colleagues in IKEA on Monday.
And ogled at the furnitures there like:
which made me repeat these words all over in my head
"When I get my pay I will buy this, this, this and this"
"When I get my pay I'll refurnish my room"
"When I get my pay my room will look like this"
I'm sure you get the gist.
When we got back to the office I was called to see one of our bosses and he presented me with an offer to go to Sabah to work.
I was actually excited on the prospect of leaving home, staying on my own plus extra allowance and discovering new places.
I got back home, told my parents about it, and they gave me their blessings.
And I started having doubts.
So many thoughts were running through me head - the possibility of homesickness (cue the years when I was in Terengganu), missing my family, missing my friends (I don't even see them that often now and when I go there how?)
I know I sound like a coward but trust me, I would rather be here for now.
NONO not that I have something against Sabah, I would love to go to Sabah one day it's just that I'm not ready to venture out. Yet.
And so I went to bed pretty much undecided and worried, woke up 3 times during my sleep and had not made any desicion in the morning. (yeah I didn't even get 24hrs to think things thoroughly)
As I drove to work, I saw TWO IKEA lorries. Not at the same time, but a few minutes apart.
Like I freaking saw 2 IKEA lorries on the LDP weh.
That's like a sign right?
I mean if I agreed to go I need to put my plans on hold cos I need to focus on settling down there and spend for a car, furnitures, laptop etcetc.
And I won't be able to buy IKEA stuffs at all! =/ (macam can afford saja but tak salah berangan)
So I went to see my boss again and told him I declined the offer, and walked out feeling great.
Lucky me it was an offer. If it was an order I'll be in KK by Monday definitely.