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I wonder if my obsession with Oguri Shun has got something to do with my state of mental health. Am I currently stressed up?
3 more papers to go, and I haven't been able to force myself to study like how I used to in the previous 2 cemerlang semesters.
Seriously, if not because of most of my notes are in the laptop, I would have kept my laptop inside a safety deposit box in one of the banks available in Kuala Terengganu.
Internet is eeeeviiiil I tell you. Makes me want to watch Oguri Shun over and over and over again.
I watched HanaKimi for the second time last week, oh and the SP+Episode 7.5 yesterday. Just because I couldn't get enough of Oguri Shun.
And I was THIS close to watching Hana Yori Dango Final, thank you very much to the slow streaming on www.mysoju.com.
But the big question is not how much my love is for Oguri Shun (I may have to delete this post one day) but why, am I falling into this state of
a) I'm so bored of my life that I need a lot of entertainment?
b) He's so gorgeous and hot that I havehavehave to look at him everday? Btw, my desktop wallpaper has changed from Tuzki bunny feeding penguins to Oguri Shun. Damn.
c) He's such a wonderful and talented actor that his shows deserve to be watch more than 10 times?
d) I'm stressed?
e) I'm lonely?
f) I'm trying to distract myself from any problems?
You help me answer.
I believe it ranges from c) to f).
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I feel like I'm alienating myself from other people because I'm pissed off about a lot of things. A lot of things. And yet I don't know what those things are.
What I know is, I should have trusted my first impressions on other people, because in the end they (the impressions) always turn out right.
The only fear I have now, is losing the people that I mostly trust. And I feel like I'm losing them as fast as the speed of Oguri Shun finishing a pack of cigaratte.
Oh well, I can just go home to my PJ friends then. They're always there for me.